Hello,

I want to thank those of you who attended the Prayer and Healing Gathering last Sunday. And please know that even though I could not always keep my eyes open or focused on you when you spoke, I knew you and I felt your tremendous capacity to love. To be the focus of that was overwhelming.

Sometimes I feel that I am not doing enough. My mind tells me that I am making all of this being ill up. This conversation usually occurs when I need to rest after I have pushed myself, or when my body is telling me to rest and my head tells me the opposite. This kind of conversation occurring in regards to whether or not to buy a car and carry the payments has  a different quality of experience  than when ones life is at stake and the decisions I have to make in fact have a direct impact on my immediate life or death.

The life or death choices deliver me to another dimension, strata, paradigm or field in which the choices are made. Yet let me be clear here that I am, have been, and will always be responsible for the choice and the circumstance. The question is what strata, what field of possibility do I ground myself into and do I even need to establish myself in any one in particular. Which do I operate from for this situation at hand? One? Many? All? I don't know.

What I do know is that God is full and complete everywhere, on all levels, operating at, in, as, and from the same wisdom power, caring and guidance.

But sometimes Gregg and I get so very confused. I flunked the traditional AMA routine. My body rejected that within 5 to six weeks putting me in the hospital twice The Dr's. agree that my body cannot withstand the 42 week treatment so it is no longer an option. So here Gregg and I are with no idea where I am heading yet knowing that God in me is in charge. Non traditional medicine not covered by insurance, looks like it leaves us few options.

Yet I know we were created from, live in and loved by, the unlimited loving Grace of God Almighty. This is our guiding Source. If I am no longer needed to serve in this body I will serve without it. My life and body is and has always been God's. It is just that I just got it this lifetime. And man when I got it I opened it up and let it free to flow through me.

As you can probably imagine every hour is different emotionally here at home. Gregg always brings me back to prayer when the pain is bad or my thinking is difficult through forgetfulness and short term memory loss. and short term memory loss. term memory loss. memory loss.  memory................................

My Sister reminds me that at times persevering in self care and self love is more important than producing, and that Being is more important than doing. And in that I find the peace and permission to be lost and tired and to sometimes feel somewhat willing to give up.

And that is when Gregg and I pray. With our arms around each other Gregg speaks his words into the ethers and I am usually a lump of human stuff in his arms.

Please join Gregg and I now in a prayer:

Dear God, we are lost, we are frightened, this is beyond our expertise, medicines are not working, what we know seems powerless regarding this dis-ease. In our little mind we want to believe that it is the wrong time and the wrong circumstances but we know we have You, and that You know.  Only You can manage this for us. We give this whole situation, everyone involved in it, its causes and all of its effects over to you.

Please Lord of Mighty Love, Strength and Eternal Protection, Wisdom and Care, take this from us. Great Sweet Potent Impenetrable Mother if our fists are holding on tight to this then do for us what we cannot do for ourselves and open our hands for us and set free the dis-ease into Your Eternal Unconditional Love. Let it come home to you Lord/Mother where its misguided energy by my error in thinking will immediately enfold it in Its loving arms and give it a place to rest and a home of peace.

Help me God, Help me Help You. It is already on its way to you. Thank You God. Amen

Here is a prayer sent to the healing and Prayer Gathering by John Michael

Blessed Michael, Archangel Guardian and Protector and blessed Raphael, Archangel Healer, please, along with the gathered forces of the angelic host, pay a healing visit to Matt NOW!   We ask that during this time of need stay with him as long as is necessary to promote his health and wellness. Please help him lift his thoughts to those of faith and hope; help him, his family, loved ones, and friends reject fear and doubt, while infusing his body with the powerful healing energy of divine love and light which you command and project at will. We ask for your help with gratitude and appreciation as we accept your intervention with humility, and profound faith.       Amen.

So I will close now with a heart full of gratitude that God Is, I AM and WE Are Fully Alive in Paradise. We Are Radiant Lights and We Are Free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Blissings,

Matt

Ps I love reading your messages to me………………..thanks for taking the time