December 3, 2009

Hello Everyone,

I apologize for the delay in writing.

Today is my Birthday and when I considered whom I wanted to spend it with you all came into my consciousness. I simply want to let you know that you are alive within me and you all dwell in a place in my heart that is protected by Angels and Beings that tower over us and walk with us and have their full attention on our well-being.

Susan Boyle is singing “How Great Thou Art” in the background, how fabulous is that? I am so full of Love right now. It is overflowing and I send it freely into God to be used wherever it is needed. If you could use some then open your heart and invite it in!!!!!!!!!

As for an update on my health which I know is simply a new and wonderful process, (all sickness is a healing in progress) whose only purpose is for me to daily surrender more deeply into more of God, Beauty, Aliveness, Heart, and Appreciation.

As for this wonderful body of mine that allows me to touch, hear, see, taste, feel, smell and experience you, it is growing stronger and stronger. I am in physical therapy twice a week, acupuncture every two weeks and massage on the two weeks between acupuncture. I have two doctors in Boston, a Neurologist for the Parkinson’s and another for HIV. Here in Provincetown I have a general MD. All of them are connected by computer which is great. We are all working together. Next is finding a top MD for my liver.

As for me the body tremors come and go. I have had a few occasions when I haven’t recognized anyone but they only last about five to ten minutes. Then I hear Gregg’s voice in the distance and slowly everything comes back into focus. He is an Angel.

Gregg and Joey Bongiovanni (my best friend who lives here also) attend a caregivers support group. They are both taking excellent care of me.

As for walking, on a good day I do not need assistance. However sometimes my right foot and leg involuntarily swings in front of my left and gets stuck there. But here’s the great part . . . Yesterday I thought F**k it! I am walking to the Doctors and I did . . . Yipppppeeeee.

I took my cane and I walked a mile. It took me 30 minutes but I did it. I noticed Joey in his jeep a few times watching out for me (I get very short of breath and he and Gregg were afraid I might fall over) but Ha, Ha, I made it . . .

I have a hunch that God and the Angels were walking me. That is why Susan Boyle singing “How great thou art” in the background as I write this message, fills me up and releases the tears that fall from my eyes . . .
God is the strength that carries me. . .
God is the strength in which I forgive . . .
God is who taught me to Love . . .
and God is who brought everyone of you into my life and heart.

“How Great Thou Art”.

I am truly blessed. . . Happy Birthday to me . . . I Love you all . . . You have been my greatest gift.

Thank you for all your Love.

Blissings,
Matt