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Please note due to Matt's illness he may only be able to respond intermittently. However, as always he holds you in his heart and prayers.
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December 3, 2009 Hello Everyone,
I apologize for the delay in writing.
Today is my Birthday and when I considered whom I wanted to spend it with you all came into my consciousness. I simply want to let you know that you are alive within me and you all dwell in a place in my heart that is protected by Angels and Beings that tower over us and walk with us and have their full attention on our well-being.
Susan Boyle is singing “How Great Thou Art” in the background, how fabulous is that? I am so full of Love right now. It is overflowing and I send it freely into God to be used wherever it is needed. If you could use some then open your heart and invite it in!!!!!!!!!
As for an update on my health which I know is simply a new and wonderful process, (all sickness is a healing in progress) whose only purpose is for me to daily surrender more deeply into more of God, Beauty, Aliveness, Heart, and Appreciation.
As for this wonderful body of mine that allows me to touch, hear, see, taste, feel, smell and experience you, it is growing stronger and stronger. I am in physical therapy twice a week, acupuncture every two weeks and massage on the two weeks between acupuncture. I have two doctors in Boston, a Neurologist for the Parkinson’s and another for HIV. Here in Provincetown I have a general MD. All of them are connected by computer which is great. We are all working together. Next is finding a top MD for my liver.
As for me the body tremors come and go. I have had a few occasions when I haven’t recognized anyone but they only last about five to ten minutes. Then I hear Gregg’s voice in the distance and slowly everything comes back into focus. He is an Angel.
Gregg and Joey Bongiovanni (my best friend who lives here also) attend a caregivers support group. They are both taking excellent care of me.
As for walking, on a good day I do not need assistance. However sometimes my right foot and leg involuntarily swings in front of my left and gets stuck there. But here’s the great part . . . Yesterday I thought F**k it! I am walking to the Doctors and I did . . . Yipppppeeeee.
I took my cane and I walked a mile. It took me 30 minutes but I did it. I noticed Joey in his jeep a few times watching out for me (I get very short of breath and he and Gregg were afraid I might fall over) but Ha, Ha, I made it . . .
I have a hunch that God and the Angels were walking me. That is why Susan Boyle singing “How great thou art” in the background as I write this message, fills me up and releases the tears that fall from my eyes . . .
God is the strength that carries me. . .
God is the strength in which I forgive . . .
God is who taught me to Love . . .
and God is who brought everyone of you into my life and heart.
“How Great Thou Art”.
I am truly blessed. . . Happy Birthday to me . . . I Love you all . . . You have been my greatest gift.
Thank you for all your Love.
Blissings,
Matt |
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UPDATE FROM MATT GARRIGAN
August 24, 2009 Hello,
Today is the first day I have opened my computer since moving to Provincetown, MA where miles of healing sand dunes meet the power of the ocean. I am sitting here in our new surroundings looking out at my favorite pinecone trees and taking in their healing aroma. I remember talking about them over the years in many of the trainings and now their healing scent is once again wafting through the air reminding me that we are all still very young and at play in the universe. In God we are healed, whole and alive regardless of the evidence. That’s my story and I am sticking to it . . . Gregg and I celebrated our 11th anniversary this month. It’s amazing how fast the eleven years have passed by . . . we have shared a lot of wonderful times together. The past two years have been very challenging for both of us. We moved into our new home July 1st. We are so happy we decided to move. Provincetown is a magical, healing and relaxing place for us. We have almost finished unpacking all of the boxes. We are settling in and it’s starting to feel like home. Gregg and I are grateful for those of you that helped with packing and moving us. We couldn’t have done it without you. It was a lot of work and we thank you very much. You are like angels to us sent straight from the Godhead to pave the way. We moved to Provincetown for many reasons: To spend more time with family & friends, which we have been doing, and to rest and heal. Also we needed to reduce living and health expenses since Gregg’s income, my SSI and donations were not covering our monthly expenses. By moving we have reduced our expenses by almost 40%, which has been very helpful in relieving the additional financial burden incurred due to my illnesses, Parkinson’s being the most difficult and my needing the most help in moving around because of it. The night we arrived in Provincetown I fell and broke my hand while getting out of the jeep. This is where a sense of humor is a must!!! Gregg teases me and says that I didn’t want to lift and unpack any boxes. But the truth is I sometimes have no control over my body movements. This can be funny at home however it can also be humiliating when out in a crowd. My right leg involuntary swings in front of my left leg and down I go reminding myself that humiliation is simply a point of view . . . There has been no real change in my health. The medical staff and Gregg and I are working on different cycles of medications, the side effects can be difficult but I am determined. The hardest is the memory loss. I can remember being so clear during trainings and Sunday Celebrations, now my short and long-term memory often elude me. Yet the still peaceful voice within continues to guide me and holds me in its loving embrace and repeats in my being, “I have more for you to do” I have met my new doctors and they agree the first priority is to improve my quality of life by managing my Parkinson’s symptoms and increasing my energy so I don’t sleep most of the day. They agree that I will someday be able to do my work again. “Friends of Matt” was originally setup to assist me in covering expenses during the yearlong interferon treatment. Since I was unable to complete the treatment due to near death complications, the donations were used to help pay for my personal health and living expenses. Once again the angels showed up and demonstrated the power to create through God the financial contributions that have helped so much. For those that have contributed to Friends of Matt we are eternally grateful. Your contributions have been crucial in helping to pay for my necessities and health care during the past 15 months. Friends of Matt raised a significant amount of money to cover most of my necessities. A few of you agreed to donate for the year and have completed your agreement. Gregg and I are grateful for your support and Thank You!!! For those that are continuing to donate we appreciate it. Our gratitude is immense and reminds us of how interconnected we are and how God works through us all when we are happy and willing to let go and to give the glory of our eternal ability to create to Him where all things are possible. Gregg has been working hard to setup our life so I won’t need to rely on donations to survive. However, we are not at that place yet and any and all donations are humbly welcome through Friends of Matt. I am hoping to be able to do a few phone sessions as we work on the right cycle of meds . . . Hmmmm, sessions on morphine and Percocet . . .now that something to sign up for . . . You are all in my thoughts and I miss you all very, very much. May you always be consciously aware of the Ascended Masters Love for you and the mantle of light surrounding you, as They show you the way and the truth of the path you are on. Blissings,
Matt & Gregg Our new mailing address for:
Matt Garrigan & Gregg Peterson
Friends of Matt is:
PO Box 555
Provincetown, MA 02657
Phone: 774-722-5755 (Office) |
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UPDATE FROM MATT GARRIGAN
June 8, 2009
Dear Friends,
I have some news that I thought needed to be shared.
On Wednesday June 17th, Gregg and I will be moving across the country to Cape Cod to be closer to my family.
I have been living in San Francisco for 37 years and 22 for Gregg. My dreams and meditations have strongly advised that due to my health it’s time for me to be around my family and of course the healing nature of Cape Cod where I spent my childhood summers. Since we made the decision to move, everything has fallen into place; but those are stories for another time.
My health goes up and down and it is very important that I follow my inner teacher(s).
The Parkinson's is sometimes in control and sometimes not. When it is not it is not a pretty picture.
This is a letter of thanks for being in service all these years.
I would like to leave you with something profound but my body is trembling. In fact I need to close this up because I am having a difficult time typing.
I am sorry it is so short a letter but for now, it is enough.
Once we get settled I hope I will be able to begin phone sessions again.
All My Love To You . . .
Blissings,
Matt & Gregg
Our new mailing address for:
LifeForce, Matt Garrigan, Gregg Peterson and Friends of Matt is:
PO Box 555
Provincetown, MA 02657
Phone: 774-722-5755 (Office)
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April 13, 2009 I hope this finds you feeling vital and alive.
I apologize for the lapse in communication. I have been stalling in my communications with you all because of the nature of it. Even now while I am writing I find myself wanting to stop.
I have been Diagnosed with Parkinson's disease. I have gotten second opinions and they are all the same.
I am trying different medications to control the trembling and shaking. Even keeping my fingers on the keys to the computer is a task. I Love my body and I know in my soul that something good will come out of this, but for now I need to allow the process to occur and know that it does not define me.
Gregg has been as always a true and mighty angel, man, partner and inspiration. He is working from 9am to 11pm almost every day and still finds the time to get things done. He's a miracle.
I want to thank all of you for your emails and cards. They mean a great deal to me. And for those of you who have found it in your heart to contribute monetarily, I want you to know that you have literally made it possible for us to squeeze by each month.
The doctors and I are working to get the physical symptoms to ease up in order for me to begin seeing clients again. That may or may not happen. It would be difficult to see clients while I am not in control of my body. But right now it would be out of the question short of a miracle, and you all know I am open for that.
So as my body trembles and my right foot swings in front of my left foot and trips me without warning, I still declare that: "I AM, AND WHO I AM IS THE POTENTIAL AND FULFILLMENT OF BEING STRONG IN SPIRIT AND HEALED IN MY HEART AND BODY REGARDLESS OF THE EVIDENCE".
I Love you all very much . . . I miss my clients immensely.
Blissings,
Matt |
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January 29, 2009
From me to you . . . . for all of us to together . . . remember, and never forget, the power of transformation during our time together . . . and on and on and on. . . The Link Below is From ME to YOU. Click link to view video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zUn7wN2zy24 I have full intention to come back into focus and full health!
I declare that I am, and who I am is complete health and aliveness! I Love and need You.
Thank you all so much,
Matt PS. Good night. I will be asleep soon. My medications are setting in and Gregg is helping me in to bed. God Bless Him  |
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December 4,
Hi,
Last week was Thanksgiving, yesterday was my birthday and the holidays are here. I really get how the Holidays are an energy. I am learning so many lessons. Feeling like I am flunking most of them .....you know, like stop resisting....which just sends me deeper into resistance . Yet still I am learning. and practicing ways back into the light.
In my acupuncture session this week the whole room burst into white light with only the acupuncturist and me in physical form. It was right after my third eye opened. Two archangel's appeared and told me to hold on, and that I am going through this for a purpose beyond what I can know right now, but I will soon know. They told me that I need to trust them more when it gets overly emotional for me. (There are days when the monotony and deep sadness take over and I just go with it and cry and allow the energy to work through me.) At first it feels like I have lost myself completely, like I am the hopelessness but as it passes through I realize I am on a journey and it is seeming more purposeful.
Physically my goal is to begin to walk to the end of the driveway. Wish me luck  . The acupuncture is helping the body tremors and I am very grateful for that. Still sleeping a lot though.
I miss you all so much. Once every day I go into my office and sit in my chair and do a 10-minute pretend session with a client. I sit and say to a client I pretend is on the sofa, "So, how’s your week been etc. etc.". I really miss my clients. But hopefully you have found someone else to assist you and you are all doing well. After all, that is the objective. So I leave my clients from over the years with these words of wisdom..."Don't screw up!!!"
I love you all . . . your messages to me on friends of Matt lift me up. I check them every day . . .
Be Healthy. Be Honest. Be Mischievous. And most of all know that the Divine Spark of Love and Light is shining through you and It loves you more than your human mind can know.
Blissings,
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October 21, 2008
Hello Everyone,
There isn't enough love in the whole world to convey how much your letters and emails mean to me. Just that you all think of me and take the time to write. I feel very loved, very fortunate and very cared about.
I am sleeping about 16-18 hours a day. The Dr's think that that is appropriate and will begin to change soon. (I hope they don't mean 24 hrs a day). Anyway 16 hrs a day of sleeping, then 3 hrs in makeup, hair, and nails doesn't leave much time to pick out an outfit, much less keep up with fan mail. Hey....maybe I'm not tired because of disease. Maybe I'm exhausted simply because I'm being me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Went to see the Doc last week. As you know I cannot do the treatment. However, in the months I was doing it my T-cells went up to 1259 (This is good. The highest they have been in 20 years) and there was no change in my HIV viral load (still non detectable). MY HepC viral load went up but that was to be expected with the two hospitalizations (July and September) and stopping the treatment.
So, it has been long enough and all the paperwork is in progress for me to begin seeing some new specialists up at UCSF. Their Dr's are in touch with my Dr. etc......We are going for the gusto kids. Enough is enough. Anything is possible....anything.......that is the essence of faith.
Sometimes when I am feeling down I just think "wow" somewhere in the universe there is a fabulous me that is back to normal and my agreement that I AM THAT is its structure for fulfillment on this dimension. Then I realize it's on its way to me.
I really miss my clients. The other day I went in and sat in my office and before I knew it I was crying thinking of all of those years of deep sharing and silly laughter and remarkable breakthrough. I guess I miss being with everyone. So when I get sad I just remember God has me in the palm of her hands and I remember precisely the day I made my conscious choice to hand my life and will over to the care of God as I knew IT, and I remember that Life is never over....never.........
I really do miss everyone. If those walls could talk.
And thanks to everyone who made it to the healing circle. It was very powerful for me. Ross my teacher was here and led it and as always it is a Divine moment when I am the focus of his work. 28 years ago He woke me from the darkness and gave me my life back and he has never stopped. The thousands who have benefited from me have done so because of him.
And to everyone....I Love You....I Do. I am so blessed to be able to feel this much love for community, friends and clients. No matter what happens, however it ends or whatever comes next, I can say "I Loved Them All, the Best I Could, even when I didn't know how". Now thats pretty cool to be able to say . . .
I LOVE YOU TONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Blissings,
Matt
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